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To make it worse, I was attending a conservative church that consistently preached purity and abstinence. I even believed that my dead relatives were watching me from heaven, horrified at what had happened to their baby girl.
I believed that God was judging me, and when I would masturbate at night, I thought He was watching me in shame. I grew to hate myself, and I hated the men in the chat room more.
We were intoxicated by the naughtiness of it and amazed by this new world to which we had been completely ignorant. I didn’t need the other girls there for emotional support anymore.
I would get home from school, hole up in my room, and pretend to be a much older, much sexier, much more experienced woman.
I had gone to a big sleepover at my friend Lauren’s house, and we were all lying around in our pink pajamas, giggling and eating junk food and sharing our middle-school gossip.